Intro-spect

All Done Here...

2006-02-06T00:13:00.000-06:00

My website is up. This is no longer. Leave a comment for the link if you've forgotten.

Bye.

Yes, it's true...

2006-02-03T23:37:00.000-06:00

I will be celebrating Valentine's Day for the first time ever. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not a fan of commercial holidays. One year I made up a bunch of my own anti-vday cards and sent them out to people, but this year I will actually be celebrating Valentine's Day.

Now don't get it wrong. I haven't met some guy so I'm not going out on a date or anything. My girls and I are going to get dressed up and go out for some fun and be each other's valentines.

I'm actually excited. I'm going to get some cute little gifts and cards for them. I think we all might buy a bottle of sparkling white grape juice. I seriously can't wait.

Celebrity Crush

2006-02-01T15:07:00.000-06:00

This is absolutely pointless, but I careth not!

This man has such georgeous, haunting eyes and good looks from some bygone era. Everything in space must have been aligned perfectly the night he was conceived. Haha. I can already tell that he's not going to age too well though.

Anywho as shallow as this may sound my future husband has got to have gorgeous eyes. I don't care if he's black, white, mexican, asian, whatever. I want to be mesmerized by his eyes.

College is basically useless...

2006-01-30T08:37:00.000-06:00

I haven't figured out the purpose of college yet. I've managed to make it through school barely taking notes and reading my textbooks. I sometimes fall asleep during lectures or lose focus and daydream. I don't study for test, yet I manage to carry a B-average. I'm not bragging or anything. I'm just trying to figure out how college has contributed to my learning. Sometimes I feel like I could have taught myself and saved the money. Darn loans!

I'm sitting here in the library typing this, which makes me laugh because I use the library for one of two things, sleeping and going online to check emails. Check out a book? Never! I can't wait for the summer so I can do my own personal reading for enjoyment.

Anyway the sleeping part is the best thing about the library. They have a room that looks like a dining/living room with a comfortable sofa to sleep on.

So, yea I'm going there right now.

Yawn

2006-01-28T02:07:00.000-06:00

I was bored so I opened up blogger comments and kept refreshing the window to see if I could find any captcha verification words that resembled real ones. Look what I came up with in the first two tries. Haha.

yours!
saves!

It's not possible...

2006-01-11T13:42:00.000-06:00

So, yeah I hate when I see someone I use to have feelings for and then those feelings just have to resurface. It's been years. Why can't the past just stay in the past?

Remember the salvation colors??

2006-01-08T00:36:00.000-06:00

I used a few and I was bored.

Relevant is last on my list

2005-12-19T23:03:00.000-06:00

I don't like Relevant Magazine, the actual magazine. I got my free copy in the mail and flipped through it and was like, "what the heck is this?"

I'm not sure what it is. Maybe it's because they did a review of Kanye West's new album and made the album seem like it was cool for Christians to listen to. I don't know. It's not something I can pin point. It gave me the same feeling that I got when our local gospel station played one of R. Kelly's "gospel" songs. I had to turn off the radio I was so irritated.

The magazine doesn't do anything for me. I guess I shouldn't judge it until I've at least subscribed to it for a year, but just from that one copy I was turned off by it. Oh well maybe I'll give Radiant a try.

You know what's funny? This.

License & registration, please

2005-11-02T21:56:00.000-06:00

I received my first ticket for speeding today. I was doing 44 in a 35 m.p.h. zone. What's crazy about it is the fact that I was listening to the radio and some guy was talking about how he had gotten pulled over for not signaling while changing lanes. The police officer told him that he was being pulled over to help prevent him from endangering his life and the life of others, because a lot of fatal accidents happen simply because people don't signal. There I was speeding down an empty side street thinking about how I need to start signaling again so I don't get pulled over.

That's when I saw a bright light behind me. At first I thought it was a motorist, but then I saw the red and blue lights flashing and pulled over.

I really didn't pray and ask God for favor as most people do. I thought about it, but I knew I was guilty, so I just handed over my license and registration. Then I sat there and waited. It seemed like it was taking forever. I was parked a few feet away from a house and whoever lived there stuck their head out the front door to see what was going on. People were driving by peering into my car. It was actually embarrassing.

So, now I have a $75 ticket that has to be paid in 7 days. Instead of picking the option to pay the ticket I've chosen to plead "not guilty" and go to court. I am guilty and I plan on telling them that, but I need to see if I will be allowed more time to pay the ticket, because I'm not working right now. I won't start work again until the third week of November. I should have the money by December.

I wish I could tell the judge it was either hurry up and get home or fall asleep while driving, which I have a tendency to do when I'm very tired.

Anyway I'm hoping the fee will be waived or I will get an extension.

Uh...Action?

2005-10-29T07:32:00.000-05:00

So, I'm filming a really corny short video in one hour. It's my first. I'm nervous and excited and I don't know why. Trying to get people for this video and trying to find time to film has been a pain in the butt. I'm sure I'm not going to like the finished product, but at least I'll have fun being the director and saying things like, "cut!" & "action!" Haha. I'm just kidding, but I should do it just for fun and because the video is corny. I wish I were funny then my film would be a humorous one, but it's not. It's pretty emo. I've been listening to a lot of emo music lately. I love Mae, but I should probably give up that secular Fall Out Boy.

Anyway yea I need to get ready to go meet my actors. My actors! Aaaah! Haha! That's great.

Temporarily Unemployed

2005-10-21T11:36:00.000-05:00

My money running out like some cheating husband. - LAS

It's so crazy how little one can do when they don't have any money. My financial situation has been pretty low since I had to quit my job, because school started back up again. I've been invited to "hang out" with several of my friends and go to the movies, see a play, go bowling, eat out at a restaurant and I've had to refuse countless times, because of my lack of funds. I have a small work study job, but it's just not cutting it. I just recently received two credit cards in the mail and how tempting they are! I've only used one, but it was on purchases that I knew I would be able to pay off in the next week or so. I don't want to be consumed with credit card debt when I am already smothered in debt from loans I've had to take out for school.

I am on a search for a new job. The Christmas season will be starting soon and I would like to work during the time that I am out of school on break. I would prefer the job to have late hours so that I could stay after the Christmas break when school begins again.

It's a hard tasks finding a job and I've forgotten just how hard it is. Every job I've had before was practically given to me. I didn't have to do much as far as searching goes. I always knew someone who was looking to hire, so getting a job came very easy for me. Now I have to think of places where I would like to work that have a pleasant environment, are within a reasonable driving distance and have flexible hours.

Honestly, I'm feeling quite lazy about this search and I have so many other things I need to do. So, it's going to take some motivation on my part. Also, I have to stop being picky about where I work. So far I've filled out two applications from different companies and I have returned only one. Yes, I need to get moving otherwise all of the available jobs that are looking for holiday workers will be gone and I can't have that.

Starting Over

2005-10-19T20:34:00.000-05:00

I closed down my website. It's the end of something I do not feel like doing anymore. Someday I'll return with a new domain name, but until then it's gone. I never thought I'd ever do it, but today I was sitting here thinking how I just want to walk away from it. So, I did.

I'll continue to blog here and occasionally at xanga for now.

I've been trying to work on my screenplay. Actually I've been sitting here trying to write something, anything, but it's as if my brain has been cleaned of all creativity. I've never felt this "dead" before. I can't stay focused for not even a few minutes. I think it's because I have so much work to do and I'm dreading it all. I'm anticipating the end of the semester and the beginning of the next. I've already planned out my last semester of college and it's going to be one that is easy. I hope.

This is the countdown

2005-10-12T16:17:00.000-05:00

I have a knack for finding aesthetic blog templates, don't I? I'm at work and I really have nothing to do except surf the internet and wait for time to pass. I'm consumed with boredom I can't even write or focus long enough to study. I wish I could study when it's quiet. During the moments that everything is still is when all of the sounds that usually go unnoticed become a deafening loudness. The low buzz of the soda machine in the hallway combined with the hum of the mini heater behind me sounds like the rumbling of a washing machine. It's such a distraction or maybe I'm just easily distracted, either way I'm not getting any work done here. Even the ticking of my watch is like the sound of someone tapping a pen on a desk. So, this is what it feels like to be blind.